Thursday, December 10, 2009
To: whom it may concern
I know u guys care for me and concern for me..
yes this few days im pulling myself away..
not only in skol..
but also at home.
i dun talk.
i kept quiet and like lost.
but u were giving me cold shoulders instead of pulling me up..
i noe u were mad,
but i myself mad at myself even more..
the hatred in me.
its nt that i dun wanna share..
well til i open up den i say.
u dun expect things to stay the same always..
wen i read those msgs,
i teared away.
like as if i dun care abt ur feelings.
I HATE IT WEN PPL GIVE ME COLD SHOULDERS..
say it den hide it..
but i undeerstand u too well that i just kept quiet.
u r who u r..
i love u still
cz u guys are always there for me without fail..
i appreciate that..
but im making a comeback for myself.
myself as a bubbly crazy idiot person.
i wish i could say this to u but i had no guts to.
i dunno why.
but i just wanna say i miss those good all time.
where PPG and MYOJo come together.
just praying to god that one day,
ur cold shoulders may be warm again
for me to lean on.
For all my girls, i love u so much.
And i Miss u too..
I promise i make a comeback...
Labels: There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 12/10/2009 10:48:00 PM
Thursday, June 11, 2009
I was so busy the past few days that i couldnt even blog..
busy with ppt and bio...
but i only touch bio yesterday..
just reading thru..waste tym sia..
then now i am memorising, understanding it by referring to diagram..
Didnt sleep for 3 days now...
my migrane didnt come attack me but my eyes uh..
god knows..dun feel like open..
when it is close thats it..
Just now went watch movie with my dear kuzzie..
its the guy...i and him close...
hehe..
we watch alien vs monster 3D..
funny but lame but still funny..
cz of the 3D specs...
LOLs..
then go eat then i go home la..
took 25 home today
when the moment i sat,
i lean against the window,
i close my eyes and i fall asleep like nobody business..
i opened my eyes and see me at Ubi...
then i closed my eyes again..
this tym i opened my eyes,
reached interchange lor..
was really deprived of sleep...
URGH!!!!
aniways..
im very thankful to god that he gave me frens who really
really be there for me..
i cant be much happier without them..
They are the one who never fail put a smile on my face..
Thank you to all my frens...
Especially my dearest PPg, Myojo, Sya, Sha, Chris..
loves....
Labels: There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 6/11/2009 10:00:00 PM
Sunday, June 7, 2009
here i am today updating my blog...
It is my Birthday today...
one yr older...
Makes me look old sia...
I didnt even celebrate with mt family..
They just wish me...
anyway...
Yesterday went out dating with Tina...
I would like to call it a VISA day..
We went to watch DRAG ME TO HELL..
Good show sia, pretty scary..haha..
Ok I paid by visa coz book online mah...
Back to where i was, Tina was closing her ears all the way..
some scene are unexpected..
Cool...LAMIA..
haha... then we went shopping..
at clubmarc..
Crazy sale sia..
Only 15 bucks...
I paid by VISA again...
hehe...i bought a blazer (coat)..
Finally..
Then we go dinner...
We cant decide where to eat..
at fisrt we wanna eat seoul garden,
then not too hungry we decide to changing appetite..
but was packed and queue is long..
so we decided to eat at Carls Junior or burger..
I dunno..my mind in A mess..
aniways that oso i paid by VISA...
and this tina..
she very cute..
she went to buy food for so long..
i was wondering where she..
then she came by with a stalk of rose..
she told me the fella give her..
and she's giving it to me..
i BELIEVED her sia..
end up she went to buy the flower first
then come to buy food..
how sweet of you..
thanks baby
god save me sia..
go home very tired, leg aching..
hehe..
Then i was waiting for my bf to call..
Not even a msg, maybe no reception..
But my bdae nt even a wish sia..
if u phone got no reception, got Hotel telephone ma..
It only cost 2 ringgit plus..
i was very down and sad..
seriously...
but all my lovely frens and cousins msg me wishing my bdae..
thank you pepz..
i love you guys for remembering..
muacks..
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 6/07/2009 12:03:00 PM
Saturday, May 30, 2009
hola..
hai everyone..
today is saturday but i am stuck at home dunno wat to do..
I tried to study but nothing seems to make sense..
ouh why ouh why..
it is such a sunny hot day..
WHEW!!!
Anyways..
Mua bdae is around the corner...
i am very sad my dear cant be with me..
he will be gone for a week or two..
on a business trip..
This long distance WILL KILL me..
haiya...
Its ok.. Looking on a brighter side..
I have my families and Friends...
celebrate with them lor...
and btw this my first tym being parted away from him for many days hor..
after 2 years together..
must be a dreadful time for me..
SMILE GIRL..
hehehehe..
anyways i just add a playlist..
3 songs..
Long distance by brandy
Hey ladies by rossa
(btw this is malay song but it is for women to make us realise we are not weak)
If u seek amy by britney..
hear them...
hehehehehehehehhe
updates soon..bye..
Labels: loads of crap, There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/30/2009 05:39:00 PM
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Harlow pepz...
I am happily blogging cause i felt better...
hehe..
Well I had tonsilitis two days ago and it swollen like crazy..
(Shalu n Tina my witness)
Then I consumed my TF den it getting better..
Must be smoking the cause...
Ouh I am so gonnaquit..
Save money also..
Need to save money for marriage la..
(LOL!!!)
OK now i about my bro..
He had chicken pox..
On his 1st day was so bad..
2nd day i bought him TF den he consumed 10 tablets per day..
and within 2 days, he was fine...
His chicken pox evidence on his body also going awy thanks to TF Renewall..
HAHAHA..
my testimonials...
Ouh ya...
I was very happy too..
Last 2 weeks, my customer called me..
She said the doctor review for her brother cancer cells is deteriorating..
its going down to stage 3 from stage 4..
Im happy for he and especially her brother..
hmm...
You know when u are able to help people,
There's this sense of satisfaction and happiness in me..
I am so happy..
Praise to the god..
Labels: Life is unfair, There is always 2 side of story
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/28/2009 03:29:00 PM
Thursday, May 21, 2009
As I was reading some of my frens blog,
i realised that everyone had their misery in life..
Not to say misery la but their dreadful down...
But here i am dedicating a song for my dear JO...
By Joey Mcintyre - Stay The Same
Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself,
you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.
I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize,
all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.
Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through
Labels: There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/21/2009 03:26:00 PM
Well here i am updating my blog in the early morning..
I came to skol early coz he came and fetch me..
Not exactly came to my place..
Yesterday we fought..
Yet again..
All because of my fault..
He was very tolerant towards me..
I was having mood swings and to say a bad mood..
I came home yesterday with migrane and my home ppl gives me headache..
Eventually i throw my tantrum at him..
He was cool, understand me he calmed me down..
Then wen we hung up the phone cz he got to go i suddenly agitated..
Then i started scolding him bla bla..
I send him all my negative thots..
Then i went to sleep..
I wake up at 2 am realising he msg me he is otw to his fren place at PAsir ris..
I know this fren of his..
But when i tot he didnt msg me he reached there alredi,
i started got on my nerve..
I scold him,..
kept calling him...
in the end i use vulgarities on him..
I respect him and i NEVER use vulgarities if we are in serious conversation..
I told him to fuck off and stuff..
He got mad and said he did msg me his whereabout..
I checked my phone..
Yes he did..
i missed reading it..
We started argumenting alreadi..
He came down to my place..
Under my void deck..
Giving me 39 missed calls.
I was guilty..
I went to look for him under my void deck..
But i cant find him..
I was sad n his batt was flat..
I didnt sleep but to look out for him..
His bike is there under my void deck..
I saw it..
Thats why i wait..
Til 7 .40 am he called me..
I try to sort things out but i realised it was too late..
He is giving me his cold shoulders..
I love him so much that i cant bear things like this to happen..
I created the situation..
N i hate myself for it..
I am making up to him..
I have made a vow not to be a negative thinker..
Also i want to understand him as much as i do..
Giving him spaces and be positive abt everything..
I shoulnt be possesive..
I AM SORRY SWEETHEART..
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART..
Labels: Guilty, love is really about sacrification, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd, There is always 2 side of story
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/21/2009 09:26:00 AM
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Last tuesday was our anniversary. Happy we were clebrating together.. tho not much..
We sat down and talk..
I'm glad that i am able to take things more on a stride now..
I am happy with things the way it is now..
It just that maybe too many obstacles I have to go thru..
Talk about school..
Well year 2 is damn stressful~!!!
I swear... @*()*&^#(^*&... LOL!!!
But it is really tedious..seriously..
but i have been skipping lectures...
bad dee...BAD GIRL...
But here is my promise, next week onwards i am focusing my time with SKOL..
I am going to study hard and smart...
HEHE...
Another issue...BUSINESS
I reli hope my businees partner T can make it thru..
This Saturday when i give out flyers,
I hope that at least 10 people call..
8 interested, 6 meet up, 4 buy, 2 join members..
LAW OF LEVERAGE...
LAW OF VISUALISATION...
ouh god...
then, about my fren RAF, i dunno what kind of leader he is actuali,,
i noe that he got some financial prob, he cant use his downline as a force..
Then also, ATIKs if u wanna noe more, text me..
hmm...pity him also..but u cant force people...
My family....
My mum especially..i noe she's tired with busy working..
but then when i come home, i dont get peace..
She will scold evryone... She expect everyone to do work for her..
I dont mind la but its like you have to understand they busy with their life too..
Then my sis is lousy..at home also no use..only sleep..CB***
then my bro..BLOODY HOT-TEMPERED..
and 2 NOTY step-bro...
my aunty also nag only...
WHAT A LIFE...
BUT I KNOW I AM STRONG..
AND I CAN MAKE IT THRU THIS PHASE...
GOD WILL BE WITH ME..
AMIN.
Labels: Life is unfair, There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/07/2009 04:46:00 PM
Saturday, April 25, 2009
HeLLO FeLLAS...
Finally i am back.... school REOPEN!!!!
was so in love..miss my dear babies in school...
well sometimes this bunch of idiot pepz are very irritating but
THEY ARE THE MOST WONDERFUL PEOPLE I HAVE EVER MET..
****thats y i love them****
whatever it is, school schedule damn pack..(hate it!)
then i too involve in business...was so happy..hope it werk out well..
then me and him now ok except almost everyday stupid fights thanks to me...
my family, well sadly... i am very sad about my mum...
im gonna make sure my business do well so that my mum dun need to werk and support my brother..i can tell she very worn out..AMIN..
MUM U ARE MY WONDERWOMEN...
this is my update for now..
will update later...
im kinda sleeppy...
its 1.33 am in the morning..
hopefulli i can wake up tmr..
god bless me...
Labels: Life is unfair, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd, There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 4/25/2009 01:28:00 AM
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
well, halo everyone...
just an update... GOTCHA'
btw i am bored... thats y i am typing...
its my rest day at home... my only day at home...
i am lying down and gave myself a big tot...
sometimes i wonder, why do people have weird perception about network marketing?
why people always have this stereotype thinking?
"ouh door-to-door" sales, "ouh need to find people", "ouh its a pyramid system"
(pyramid is a system whereby the people above us earn more than us when we do more job)
hmm..i dun mind all those tots...
to be successful,
u dun have to take into heart what people said, take it as a point of learning
then when i said about the product,
they said, "its about ourselves", "so good meh?", "i hear the same stories la", well i dun care what u think, i got proved, my product is patented, it has 3500 clinical reports...
and all my intention is to help those who really need it..
why not, if cancer patient of stage 4 can be cured and the condition improved, and so does stroke people can move, Diabetes people improved the sugar level in blood and many more, y take the risk to scared and be so negative about it...
it really is...
i am just sharing, is not as though i am forcing you to buy my product or join me a business partner, you have ur own choices, i am just sharing with you...
the rest is up to you..
LIFE IS ABOUT CHOICES,
your choices,
btw if u wanna know what i am doing, send me comment ya
or email me...
(to know my email comment me)
i will share with you , the rest is up to you...
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Life is unfair, There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 3/18/2009 06:03:00 PM
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Hola guys.... after so long here i appear again....
I am busy with my life... 2 Jobs....
Wakakaka... Let say network marketing and also Toys R Us...
Also ever since i started my business i have been busy looking out for prospect at the same time
planning my strategy bla bla bla....
Life has been better... In terms of health, my relationship with frens and famlies and also him...
Also life has been better for my family and hopefully it will be so in the years to come...
And also i am busy with the bike license....haha..
finally enrolled and prac 1 sadly fail...
Its ok i guess...
Success Comes with Failures and
Never Let Failure as an OBstacle to YOUR SUCCESS
woohooo...
one more thing i am looking forward for the powerpuff gals outing like we did last bowling and mustafa centre outing... How sweet... Tina if u are reading this text me... LOL...
btw this is my aim by the end of 2009
1) To earn at least Presidential Diamond in my network marketing
2) To get engaged..
(nw when i said im ready he said Straight to marriage. CRAZY!)
2) To get my 2B license
3) And get my FINO bike...
here's the preview
Cute huh..haha... its ok..just like me... and Jo will be my pillion and make her first experince riding a bike...hahahahahahaha...LOVE JO!!!!
not forgetting my other GFS too..
You should know who yourself la...
Muacks to the power girls..
Labels: There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 3/14/2009 11:35:00 PM
Saturday, February 14, 2009
I know its my fault..
i lied to you all this while..
But i didnt meant to..
All i want was you and nothing else...
I know my fault for doing this to you..
I love you and nothing else...
Its valentine day but we wasnt as happy as all other couples..
We were fighting from marina square to suntec..
I cried in public and what i got...
I dunno wat to say alredi....
whatever it is i love you...
Dun ever leave me...
You were so cold towards me...
Labels: Life is unfair, love is really about sacrification, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd, There is always 2 side of story
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 2/14/2009 10:20:00 PM
Friday, January 23, 2009
when i think back, i really regret..
regret for not loving him as much as he loves me..
all this while he treat me like a fren but it just that, he curfewed me.
He dun really let me do things but i can once in a while..
he is very reasonable.. I agreeed i used to hate him..
Cz when he first came to my family he just approach us with lies..
But now i know why he lied.. Now i understand..
All this while he care for me, and treat me like his own daughter.
I just dun seems to appreciate it...
People say ,
"You wont know how much that persons mean to you Les he left you".
I agreed on that saying so much.. I neve said i love him before..
I nver did.. I didnt even get the chance to say i am sorry for all the things i did..
so those ppl who read my blog..here are some piece of advice..
ur parents may scold u, nag at u n u tink dey dun noe hw u feel..
love them as much as they love you..
you can say those 3 words to ur special someone..
but it is so hard to say i love you to ur parents..
while they are still alive, care for them and respect them,
try to understand them..
It neva too late..
Labels: There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 1/23/2009 08:08:00 PM
Monday, November 17, 2008
No one really can tell from this bubbly cheerful noisy girl like me have their sorrow side of sorrows. No one can tell that i am LONELY. deep down in my heart. seriously. i am. at home i dont have the attention and love from my family and anyone other does too.. not that i pull myself away but looking at my family condition it just wrecks my heart. With my mom bein 27/7 brainwashed by my step father. And with my dad who is so far away from me distant. He too married with his new wife living away from me. the last tym i saw him was 2 months ago. My sis had no tym for me not for this family she only work throughout her life. I do have bf but he too is too busy with his new career and skols and own family. I do have frens but the moment skol is over all of them had thier on own life to entertain to. While me may seem cheerful but i just had no one to laugh to at night or cry on a shoulder when i need them. I felt being a stranger in my own world. I AM so dread of being cared and loved by my close one. Yes they said it but they dont show it. I just feel so down now.. When i cried at night, it just me bein myself trying to overcome all the sadness in my life. If only i can shout it to the whole world. I dont expect everyday of my life to smile but just a heart warming feeling like as though you know hey this is my life. i love it.When i dont anyway. i feel so lost. stranded in the biggest ocean, sailing with nowhere to be known. only drift as the waves push me.
Labels: There is always 2 side of story
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/17/2008 09:25:00 PM
