Friday, July 17, 2009
just nw celeb tina & gariel bdae
eat at seoul garden after long long tym
was so happy when suddenly he beep me
then you told me u need some tym alone...
i will give u bt how long..
i need assurance..
will u come back or u dun turn back?
then u said u wanna go for the raffles lab test,
which for 5mth u wont be back,
u cant go bck,
i dun understand suddenly,,
when i said i wanna study overseas,
you said u cant bear for us to be apart..
then now??
who am i to you?
where do i stands to u??
i feel like crying,
but is it worth it???
idk wat to say wat to think...
one after another u wreck my heart..
was i reli that plastic??
was this how u take charge?
wat do u take me for?
wat u expect me to do?
hang myself n die infront of you?
wat u want from me?
u tell me so i knoe..
at the very least i can do something!
you are heartless, selfish creature!!!!
if im reli in ur heart,
will u even bear to do this to me?
let me cry on my own?
everything on my own?
is this how u wanna things to happen?
i cant believe things turning this way..
Labels: if only u knew, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 7/17/2009 11:16:00 PM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Right now u are at home, having u good sleep..
while im here crying n fixing the broken heart...
we watch transformer and i was crying throughout the whole show..
i was cold but u couldnt care to even hug me..
u didnnt even bother to talk to me since we met..
only necessary questions n thats it..
i couldnt be mad cz i know i was wrong..
i knew u r very angry n sad..
but i was disappointed that u did this to me..
n wen i decided to go home on my own,
u blame me everything..
i knew i only give u problems..
i knew u were too good for me..
i dunno wat to say...
maybe it is best for us be at distance now..
im so sorry..
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 7/14/2009 08:47:00 PM
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
hey guys..
sad sad sad life..
i went to hard rock cafe yesterday..
had dinner and watch kumar performed..
he damn cute and funny..
he reli hmm chinese..
hahaha..whtever..
you watch him non stop u must laugh..
but u must be singaporean to understand his comedy...
went home..
fight with him..i was drunk..
so be it...
then now i am not talking terms with him...
i dunn wanna talk about him..
live life fullest..
hehehe..
chiow!!!
doing group meeting now!
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 6/16/2009 01:25:00 PM
Monday, June 8, 2009
When all I thot u came back,
to put a smile on my face..
I was wrong...
It was tears that u replaced...
Now u telling me to understand you,
for all you are busy with ur werk..
I tot u came back to ease thing off..
excuses u came out with..
Chasing our dream..
Was i too lean back?
Am i too clingy to u?
What will i do?
I've move on..
I dun wanna think anymore..
I dun wanna say anymore..
Let nature take it course
and let time settle everything..
my mouth are seal..
My heart is hurt...
and its bleeding..
only god u understand..
Why must i go thru all this?
Is this the test u put me on
before you can give me the happiness?
Oh God pls tell me now...
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Life is unfair, love is really about sacrification, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 6/08/2009 08:57:00 PM
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Well here i am updating my blog in the early morning..
I came to skol early coz he came and fetch me..
Not exactly came to my place..
Yesterday we fought..
Yet again..
All because of my fault..
He was very tolerant towards me..
I was having mood swings and to say a bad mood..
I came home yesterday with migrane and my home ppl gives me headache..
Eventually i throw my tantrum at him..
He was cool, understand me he calmed me down..
Then wen we hung up the phone cz he got to go i suddenly agitated..
Then i started scolding him bla bla..
I send him all my negative thots..
Then i went to sleep..
I wake up at 2 am realising he msg me he is otw to his fren place at PAsir ris..
I know this fren of his..
But when i tot he didnt msg me he reached there alredi,
i started got on my nerve..
I scold him,..
kept calling him...
in the end i use vulgarities on him..
I respect him and i NEVER use vulgarities if we are in serious conversation..
I told him to fuck off and stuff..
He got mad and said he did msg me his whereabout..
I checked my phone..
Yes he did..
i missed reading it..
We started argumenting alreadi..
He came down to my place..
Under my void deck..
Giving me 39 missed calls.
I was guilty..
I went to look for him under my void deck..
But i cant find him..
I was sad n his batt was flat..
I didnt sleep but to look out for him..
His bike is there under my void deck..
I saw it..
Thats why i wait..
Til 7 .40 am he called me..
I try to sort things out but i realised it was too late..
He is giving me his cold shoulders..
I love him so much that i cant bear things like this to happen..
I created the situation..
N i hate myself for it..
I am making up to him..
I have made a vow not to be a negative thinker..
Also i want to understand him as much as i do..
Giving him spaces and be positive abt everything..
I shoulnt be possesive..
I AM SORRY SWEETHEART..
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART..
Labels: Guilty, love is really about sacrification, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd, There is always 2 side of story
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/21/2009 09:26:00 AM
Friday, May 1, 2009
Lately i thot a lot about breaking up with him.
i Just don't know why..
Is it that due to my love for him have fade away? (which i doubt)
Or is it due to our relationship has drifted far away?
or is it due to him neglect about me?
I dunno.. i am reli confused.
But here is my story...
He asked me to give him 2 months for him to prove himself.
I agreed and tried to understand him but he totally neglect me as his girlfren.
he dont confide in me. Im just like transparent to him.
He always wanted me to understand him but who to understand me?
Where was he when i wanted someone to talk to?
I did tried to talk things out.
Many times. But end up, i was shouted at, scold at, blamed at.
I keep it to myself, i pull it through coz deep down me i noe i love him.
I wanted to give him chance. End up I was the one tearing.
Where do i really stand?
After all that we went through what is it reli that matters to him?
I dunno.....
I'm CONFUSED..
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Life is unfair, love is really about sacrification, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/01/2009 08:11:00 PM
Saturday, April 25, 2009
HeLLO FeLLAS...
Finally i am back.... school REOPEN!!!!
was so in love..miss my dear babies in school...
well sometimes this bunch of idiot pepz are very irritating but
THEY ARE THE MOST WONDERFUL PEOPLE I HAVE EVER MET..
****thats y i love them****
whatever it is, school schedule damn pack..(hate it!)
then i too involve in business...was so happy..hope it werk out well..
then me and him now ok except almost everyday stupid fights thanks to me...
my family, well sadly... i am very sad about my mum...
im gonna make sure my business do well so that my mum dun need to werk and support my brother..i can tell she very worn out..AMIN..
MUM U ARE MY WONDERWOMEN...
this is my update for now..
will update later...
im kinda sleeppy...
its 1.33 am in the morning..
hopefulli i can wake up tmr..
god bless me...
Labels: Life is unfair, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd, There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 4/25/2009 01:28:00 AM
Saturday, February 14, 2009
I know its my fault..
i lied to you all this while..
But i didnt meant to..
All i want was you and nothing else...
I know my fault for doing this to you..
I love you and nothing else...
Its valentine day but we wasnt as happy as all other couples..
We were fighting from marina square to suntec..
I cried in public and what i got...
I dunno wat to say alredi....
whatever it is i love you...
Dun ever leave me...
You were so cold towards me...
Labels: Life is unfair, love is really about sacrification, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd, There is always 2 side of story
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 2/14/2009 10:20:00 PM
Friday, December 26, 2008
Hola.....I'm back...
Well actually not, but i decided to drop by today..
Because i've not been Blogging....
When I am doin nothing....
Well, Btw bz with Skol and Chingay and ESSAY (1500 words=sucks)
Very tiring with life....
Especially my family...
I just hate them to cores...dont ask me y...(too many reasons)
However, i'm getting BETTER with BF...
well,honestly lately we've been the craziest...
NO NO NO..not mushy2x but like gangster you know what i mean..
We bullied each other and call each other just to say "WHAT IDIOT!!!"
if we met up, i will beat him, smack him, spank him *wink* & pinch him
then he will scold me, nag at me and pinch me too..(he dun dare beat me)
haha...well, cz i HATE my FAMILY!!!!!!!! to the CORES!!!!
❤ did i just say me and BF getting better??? *wink*
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 12/26/2008 07:19:00 PM
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Azfar, HAPPY 16th mths sayang...
I love you sooo much....
with regards whatever happen...
though everyday we fought and argue
though at the very night of our BIG day we fought again
let me just tell you this.
i love you and we still are standing strong..
i reli pray that you change..
i reli hope you CHANGED.
i just want us to be as happy as we can be..
seeing you smile just make me feel so happy....
I MISS YOU
I LOVE YOU
I NEED YOU
I WANT YOU
our memory Labels: Love is Really ComPLicatTEd
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 12/06/2008 10:31:00 PM
