Friday, July 10, 2009
hey im back babes...
long time from my entry...
its been a while since i spent tym with him..
only us together go dating..
long long time..
haix...
then when i check his phone lots of girls no..
i dun wanna noe...
i oso dun noe wat to think...
but he swear beg at me saying he didnt do anything stupid..
i dunno all this empty saying..
haiya..
anyways lotsa problem at home..
i cant stand a sight at home..
i feel like crying and swearing..
i dont understand..whatever i did all wrong..
they swear on me say im useless la..
no point being a girl..
i dunno la...
when whatever i did is all for them ...
when i run away i dun wanna let anyone noe...
no one..
at all...
i feel like standing on top of mountain..
AND SCREAM ON TOP OF MY FUCKING LUNG!!!!!
UUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!
ok dee, take a deep breathe in,
out, breathe in, out..
relax..
and smile!!!!
haiya..
SMILE!!!
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Life is unfair
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 7/10/2009 10:16:00 PM
Monday, June 8, 2009
When all I thot u came back,
to put a smile on my face..
I was wrong...
It was tears that u replaced...
Now u telling me to understand you,
for all you are busy with ur werk..
I tot u came back to ease thing off..
excuses u came out with..
Chasing our dream..
Was i too lean back?
Am i too clingy to u?
What will i do?
I've move on..
I dun wanna think anymore..
I dun wanna say anymore..
Let nature take it course
and let time settle everything..
my mouth are seal..
My heart is hurt...
and its bleeding..
only god u understand..
Why must i go thru all this?
Is this the test u put me on
before you can give me the happiness?
Oh God pls tell me now...
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Life is unfair, love is really about sacrification, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 6/08/2009 08:57:00 PM
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Harlow pepz...
I am happily blogging cause i felt better...
hehe..
Well I had tonsilitis two days ago and it swollen like crazy..
(Shalu n Tina my witness)
Then I consumed my TF den it getting better..
Must be smoking the cause...
Ouh I am so gonnaquit..
Save money also..
Need to save money for marriage la..
(LOL!!!)
OK now i about my bro..
He had chicken pox..
On his 1st day was so bad..
2nd day i bought him TF den he consumed 10 tablets per day..
and within 2 days, he was fine...
His chicken pox evidence on his body also going awy thanks to TF Renewall..
HAHAHA..
my testimonials...
Ouh ya...
I was very happy too..
Last 2 weeks, my customer called me..
She said the doctor review for her brother cancer cells is deteriorating..
its going down to stage 3 from stage 4..
Im happy for he and especially her brother..
hmm...
You know when u are able to help people,
There's this sense of satisfaction and happiness in me..
I am so happy..
Praise to the god..
Labels: Life is unfair, There is always 2 side of story
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/28/2009 03:29:00 PM
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Sometimes, when things u really wanted you wont get it.
Then most of the tyms wen ppl dun want somthing but they got it..
and ppl who badly wants it, yet dun receives it..
Life..
honestly i am so disappointed..
I cried wen i look at it..
I just cant seem to understand..
What went wrong??
I dun understand..
I cried and cried...
I felt like as though a knife pierce thru my heart...
But what can i do??
Its fated...
Labels: l, Life Is about Pretending, Life is unfair
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/19/2009 10:57:00 PM
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Last tuesday was our anniversary. Happy we were clebrating together.. tho not much..
We sat down and talk..
I'm glad that i am able to take things more on a stride now..
I am happy with things the way it is now..
It just that maybe too many obstacles I have to go thru..
Talk about school..
Well year 2 is damn stressful~!!!
I swear... @*()*&^#(^*&... LOL!!!
But it is really tedious..seriously..
but i have been skipping lectures...
bad dee...BAD GIRL...
But here is my promise, next week onwards i am focusing my time with SKOL..
I am going to study hard and smart...
HEHE...
Another issue...BUSINESS
I reli hope my businees partner T can make it thru..
This Saturday when i give out flyers,
I hope that at least 10 people call..
8 interested, 6 meet up, 4 buy, 2 join members..
LAW OF LEVERAGE...
LAW OF VISUALISATION...
ouh god...
then, about my fren RAF, i dunno what kind of leader he is actuali,,
i noe that he got some financial prob, he cant use his downline as a force..
Then also, ATIKs if u wanna noe more, text me..
hmm...pity him also..but u cant force people...
My family....
My mum especially..i noe she's tired with busy working..
but then when i come home, i dont get peace..
She will scold evryone... She expect everyone to do work for her..
I dont mind la but its like you have to understand they busy with their life too..
Then my sis is lousy..at home also no use..only sleep..CB***
then my bro..BLOODY HOT-TEMPERED..
and 2 NOTY step-bro...
my aunty also nag only...
WHAT A LIFE...
BUT I KNOW I AM STRONG..
AND I CAN MAKE IT THRU THIS PHASE...
GOD WILL BE WITH ME..
AMIN.
Labels: Life is unfair, There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/07/2009 04:46:00 PM
Friday, May 1, 2009
Lately i thot a lot about breaking up with him.
i Just don't know why..
Is it that due to my love for him have fade away? (which i doubt)
Or is it due to our relationship has drifted far away?
or is it due to him neglect about me?
I dunno.. i am reli confused.
But here is my story...
He asked me to give him 2 months for him to prove himself.
I agreed and tried to understand him but he totally neglect me as his girlfren.
he dont confide in me. Im just like transparent to him.
He always wanted me to understand him but who to understand me?
Where was he when i wanted someone to talk to?
I did tried to talk things out.
Many times. But end up, i was shouted at, scold at, blamed at.
I keep it to myself, i pull it through coz deep down me i noe i love him.
I wanted to give him chance. End up I was the one tearing.
Where do i really stand?
After all that we went through what is it reli that matters to him?
I dunno.....
I'm CONFUSED..
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Life is unfair, love is really about sacrification, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/01/2009 08:11:00 PM
Saturday, April 25, 2009
HeLLO FeLLAS...
Finally i am back.... school REOPEN!!!!
was so in love..miss my dear babies in school...
well sometimes this bunch of idiot pepz are very irritating but
THEY ARE THE MOST WONDERFUL PEOPLE I HAVE EVER MET..
****thats y i love them****
whatever it is, school schedule damn pack..(hate it!)
then i too involve in business...was so happy..hope it werk out well..
then me and him now ok except almost everyday stupid fights thanks to me...
my family, well sadly... i am very sad about my mum...
im gonna make sure my business do well so that my mum dun need to werk and support my brother..i can tell she very worn out..AMIN..
MUM U ARE MY WONDERWOMEN...
this is my update for now..
will update later...
im kinda sleeppy...
its 1.33 am in the morning..
hopefulli i can wake up tmr..
god bless me...
Labels: Life is unfair, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd, There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 4/25/2009 01:28:00 AM
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
well, halo everyone...
just an update... GOTCHA'
btw i am bored... thats y i am typing...
its my rest day at home... my only day at home...
i am lying down and gave myself a big tot...
sometimes i wonder, why do people have weird perception about network marketing?
why people always have this stereotype thinking?
"ouh door-to-door" sales, "ouh need to find people", "ouh its a pyramid system"
(pyramid is a system whereby the people above us earn more than us when we do more job)
hmm..i dun mind all those tots...
to be successful,
u dun have to take into heart what people said, take it as a point of learning
then when i said about the product,
they said, "its about ourselves", "so good meh?", "i hear the same stories la", well i dun care what u think, i got proved, my product is patented, it has 3500 clinical reports...
and all my intention is to help those who really need it..
why not, if cancer patient of stage 4 can be cured and the condition improved, and so does stroke people can move, Diabetes people improved the sugar level in blood and many more, y take the risk to scared and be so negative about it...
it really is...
i am just sharing, is not as though i am forcing you to buy my product or join me a business partner, you have ur own choices, i am just sharing with you...
the rest is up to you..
LIFE IS ABOUT CHOICES,
your choices,
btw if u wanna know what i am doing, send me comment ya
or email me...
(to know my email comment me)
i will share with you , the rest is up to you...
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Life is unfair, There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 3/18/2009 06:03:00 PM
Saturday, February 14, 2009
I know its my fault..
i lied to you all this while..
But i didnt meant to..
All i want was you and nothing else...
I know my fault for doing this to you..
I love you and nothing else...
Its valentine day but we wasnt as happy as all other couples..
We were fighting from marina square to suntec..
I cried in public and what i got...
I dunno wat to say alredi....
whatever it is i love you...
Dun ever leave me...
You were so cold towards me...
Labels: Life is unfair, love is really about sacrification, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd, There is always 2 side of story
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 2/14/2009 10:20:00 PM
Friday, January 23, 2009
After soooo looooong i didnt blog....
many things happen recently that creates a lot of downfall...
My father passed away last week...
it happened to soon and to complex..
.it just tym for him to go..No one would expct it so soon..
But wen i see his dead body i cried and cried...
it just so pity and and indonesia mortuary arent like mortuary at all..
i can still feel his presence here in this house..his last words for me is to keep quit smoking..
and i am very am gng to quit smoking...
no one knew how much pain i am gng thru..
especially seeing my mum emotional breakdown..cz she always depend on him..
and now he go left my mum alone handling all the problems..
i tried to ease my mum burden trying to be there for her..
i noe all she need me to be there for her..
i know that she also wants to be heard to be loved for now
she had no one except her children..
i pity most my two young brother..they didnt know anything..
nothing at all..
yet they keep asking abt his dad every night...
my mum pray every day and night..she need to be strong..
ma no matter what happen i love you soo much...
now me and my sister are doing all we can to ease our family financial...
i really hope i can do this..no one can really know what is inside me..
i wish i can help my mum as much as i can..
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Life is unfair
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 1/23/2009 02:19:00 PM
Monday, November 24, 2008
What is life actually?
What is there for life?
What does life holds for me?
I don't know why am i saying all this...
I just felt like crying..
I felt like shouting on the top of the world...
Why must all this happen to me?
What have I done that i got all this?
I tried my best to overcome all this obstacles..
All i know i cried every night of my life trying to calmed myself..
Crying to make myself happy, to throw all the sadness..
Labels: Life is unfair
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/24/2008 09:54:00 PM
