Saturday, May 30, 2009
hola..
hai everyone..
today is saturday but i am stuck at home dunno wat to do..
I tried to study but nothing seems to make sense..
ouh why ouh why..
it is such a sunny hot day..
WHEW!!!
Anyways..
Mua bdae is around the corner...
i am very sad my dear cant be with me..
he will be gone for a week or two..
on a business trip..
This long distance WILL KILL me..
haiya...
Its ok.. Looking on a brighter side..
I have my families and Friends...
celebrate with them lor...
and btw this my first tym being parted away from him for many days hor..
after 2 years together..
must be a dreadful time for me..
SMILE GIRL..
hehehehe..
anyways i just add a playlist..
3 songs..
Long distance by brandy
Hey ladies by rossa
(btw this is malay song but it is for women to make us realise we are not weak)
If u seek amy by britney..
hear them...
hehehehehehehehhe
updates soon..bye..
Labels: loads of crap, There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/30/2009 05:39:00 PM
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Harlow pepz...
I am happily blogging cause i felt better...
hehe..
Well I had tonsilitis two days ago and it swollen like crazy..
(Shalu n Tina my witness)
Then I consumed my TF den it getting better..
Must be smoking the cause...
Ouh I am so gonnaquit..
Save money also..
Need to save money for marriage la..
(LOL!!!)
OK now i about my bro..
He had chicken pox..
On his 1st day was so bad..
2nd day i bought him TF den he consumed 10 tablets per day..
and within 2 days, he was fine...
His chicken pox evidence on his body also going awy thanks to TF Renewall..
HAHAHA..
my testimonials...
Ouh ya...
I was very happy too..
Last 2 weeks, my customer called me..
She said the doctor review for her brother cancer cells is deteriorating..
its going down to stage 3 from stage 4..
Im happy for he and especially her brother..
hmm...
You know when u are able to help people,
There's this sense of satisfaction and happiness in me..
I am so happy..
Praise to the god..
Labels: Life is unfair, There is always 2 side of story
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/28/2009 03:29:00 PM
Thursday, May 21, 2009
As I was reading some of my frens blog,
i realised that everyone had their misery in life..
Not to say misery la but their dreadful down...
But here i am dedicating a song for my dear JO...
By Joey Mcintyre - Stay The Same
Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself,
you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.
I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize,
all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.
Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through
Labels: There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/21/2009 03:26:00 PM
Well here i am updating my blog in the early morning..
I came to skol early coz he came and fetch me..
Not exactly came to my place..
Yesterday we fought..
Yet again..
All because of my fault..
He was very tolerant towards me..
I was having mood swings and to say a bad mood..
I came home yesterday with migrane and my home ppl gives me headache..
Eventually i throw my tantrum at him..
He was cool, understand me he calmed me down..
Then wen we hung up the phone cz he got to go i suddenly agitated..
Then i started scolding him bla bla..
I send him all my negative thots..
Then i went to sleep..
I wake up at 2 am realising he msg me he is otw to his fren place at PAsir ris..
I know this fren of his..
But when i tot he didnt msg me he reached there alredi,
i started got on my nerve..
I scold him,..
kept calling him...
in the end i use vulgarities on him..
I respect him and i NEVER use vulgarities if we are in serious conversation..
I told him to fuck off and stuff..
He got mad and said he did msg me his whereabout..
I checked my phone..
Yes he did..
i missed reading it..
We started argumenting alreadi..
He came down to my place..
Under my void deck..
Giving me 39 missed calls.
I was guilty..
I went to look for him under my void deck..
But i cant find him..
I was sad n his batt was flat..
I didnt sleep but to look out for him..
His bike is there under my void deck..
I saw it..
Thats why i wait..
Til 7 .40 am he called me..
I try to sort things out but i realised it was too late..
He is giving me his cold shoulders..
I love him so much that i cant bear things like this to happen..
I created the situation..
N i hate myself for it..
I am making up to him..
I have made a vow not to be a negative thinker..
Also i want to understand him as much as i do..
Giving him spaces and be positive abt everything..
I shoulnt be possesive..
I AM SORRY SWEETHEART..
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART..
Labels: Guilty, love is really about sacrification, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd, There is always 2 side of story
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/21/2009 09:26:00 AM
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Sometimes, when things u really wanted you wont get it.
Then most of the tyms wen ppl dun want somthing but they got it..
and ppl who badly wants it, yet dun receives it..
Life..
honestly i am so disappointed..
I cried wen i look at it..
I just cant seem to understand..
What went wrong??
I dun understand..
I cried and cried...
I felt like as though a knife pierce thru my heart...
But what can i do??
Its fated...
Labels: l, Life Is about Pretending, Life is unfair
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/19/2009 10:57:00 PM
Monday, May 18, 2009
Wei pepz...
anyways im bored...
haha..
i have decided that i am not going to cut my hair..
after some considerations...
well good news to my girlfrens (i guessed)
and yarh...
im off...
toodles..
bye...
Labels: loads of crap
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/18/2009 08:32:00 PM
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Im back...hahaha...
Today was a long day..
But i make it short...
Cause i had migrane...
I dontknow, it strikes again.
But after i took Transfer Factor i am feeling ok til now..
Seriously, my school schedule is damn packed...
I better need to study nw..
But i am still in my happy mood...
Dont ask me why, i just havent turn up my gear yet..
wakakakakaka...
Btw I am planning to cut my hair damn short..
maybe like this? what you think...
comment me now!!!
Sexy huh? But Shall i?
Cz my hair its like a lion alredi..
I want to keep it long and curl it...
But i will look older if i Have my hair curled..
hmmm..i just cant decide.. LOL...
Ouh ya btw I miss Noi alot..
when are we going to meet bitch??
Labels: loads of crap
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/14/2009 06:37:00 PM
Thursday, May 7, 2009
hello baby dee!
you're strong girl, you'll make it thru BECAUSE nana will always be with you!
iloveyou (:
w many xoxo.
NANA
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/07/2009 04:46:00 PM
Last tuesday was our anniversary. Happy we were clebrating together.. tho not much..
We sat down and talk..
I'm glad that i am able to take things more on a stride now..
I am happy with things the way it is now..
It just that maybe too many obstacles I have to go thru..
Talk about school..
Well year 2 is damn stressful~!!!
I swear... @*()*&^#(^*&... LOL!!!
But it is really tedious..seriously..
but i have been skipping lectures...
bad dee...BAD GIRL...
But here is my promise, next week onwards i am focusing my time with SKOL..
I am going to study hard and smart...
HEHE...
Another issue...BUSINESS
I reli hope my businees partner T can make it thru..
This Saturday when i give out flyers,
I hope that at least 10 people call..
8 interested, 6 meet up, 4 buy, 2 join members..
LAW OF LEVERAGE...
LAW OF VISUALISATION...
ouh god...
then, about my fren RAF, i dunno what kind of leader he is actuali,,
i noe that he got some financial prob, he cant use his downline as a force..
Then also, ATIKs if u wanna noe more, text me..
hmm...pity him also..but u cant force people...
My family....
My mum especially..i noe she's tired with busy working..
but then when i come home, i dont get peace..
She will scold evryone... She expect everyone to do work for her..
I dont mind la but its like you have to understand they busy with their life too..
Then my sis is lousy..at home also no use..only sleep..CB***
then my bro..BLOODY HOT-TEMPERED..
and 2 NOTY step-bro...
my aunty also nag only...
WHAT A LIFE...
BUT I KNOW I AM STRONG..
AND I CAN MAKE IT THRU THIS PHASE...
GOD WILL BE WITH ME..
AMIN.
Labels: Life is unfair, There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/07/2009 04:46:00 PM
Friday, May 1, 2009
Lately i thot a lot about breaking up with him.
i Just don't know why..
Is it that due to my love for him have fade away? (which i doubt)
Or is it due to our relationship has drifted far away?
or is it due to him neglect about me?
I dunno.. i am reli confused.
But here is my story...
He asked me to give him 2 months for him to prove himself.
I agreed and tried to understand him but he totally neglect me as his girlfren.
he dont confide in me. Im just like transparent to him.
He always wanted me to understand him but who to understand me?
Where was he when i wanted someone to talk to?
I did tried to talk things out.
Many times. But end up, i was shouted at, scold at, blamed at.
I keep it to myself, i pull it through coz deep down me i noe i love him.
I wanted to give him chance. End up I was the one tearing.
Where do i really stand?
After all that we went through what is it reli that matters to him?
I dunno.....
I'm CONFUSED..
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Life is unfair, love is really about sacrification, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/01/2009 08:11:00 PM
