Monday, July 27, 2009
its been a while since i blog..
many things took place whithin this short period of tym..
i dunno if im single or not..
i oso dunno..my mind messed up..
btw been busy with attachment at KK..
wow..lotsa case i heard and i was surprised..
talk about it later..now sleepy buut i still wanna blog..
you knoe EVERYONE GOT FUCKING PROBLEM..
BUT YOU GOT FUCKING ATTITUDE..
THAT THE REASON Y!!!
YES IM BONDED THAT Y I GOT MONEY
BUT FUCKING SHIT I SUPPORT MY FUCKING SELF AND
I NEED TO PROVIDE FOR MY FUCKING FAMILY..
WHY YOU NEVER HAVE TRUE FRIENDS???
LOOK AT YOUR SELF..
YOU THOT ONLY ABT URSELF..
CMON LA..
IF YOU ARE SO GOOD WHY YOU DUN HAVE TRUE FRIENDS..
IM FUCKING TIRED TO TALK ABT THIS OVER AND OVER AGAIN..
YOU ARE BIG ENUF!!!
THINK ABT IT!!!
I DUN BITCH I FRANKLY SPEAK THE FUCKING TRUTH...
ITS HOW YOU COPE WITH UR PROBLEMS..
I HAD SO MANY THINGS GOING ON BUT I CHEER MYSELF UP AND NOT SHOW FUCKING FACE..
YOU INVITE PROBLEMS TO YOURSLEF AND YOU WANT US TO CLEAR IT??
HARLOE!!!
TAKE THINGS RESPONSIBLY AND INITIATE LA...
NOT PPL KEEP TELLING YOU WHAT TO DO!!
YOU GOT NO BRAINS IS IT?
ONCE IN A WHILE CAN LA..
IF OFTEN YOU CAN KISS MY ASS OFF...
PLEASE LA..
GROW UP OK?
dun think ant urself.
its not onli u gt prob others too..
if u wanna tok abt it say it..
but if it the same problem u had, then what else can i say??
all the best to you..
i said my piece..
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 7/27/2009 11:35:00 PM
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Yesterday, went to club at POWERHOUSE..
woohoo..
Me, tina and chris..
Free entry for tertiary students before 11..
and the music is RNB hIP hop by DJ KAZEE..
damn fun la..
at first not la..
drink JOHNIE WALKER BLACK LABEL
for FREE!!!
with coke of course..
Celebrate tina bdae!!!
n she was OMG!!!
its a secret..
i dance like nobody business..
with everyone around me...
wooooooo....
then when we go backto our seats, Tina drink the liquor..
and she broke the glass on my legs lor!!!
damn sad la..
but i was fine..
i was drunk at first but managed to control
and was fine..
until TINA MADE EMBARRASSMENT ON HER BDAE..
hahaha..only i know with CAVEN...
hehe..
had lotsa fun..
love tina n chris...
weee
Labels: if only u knew, Life Is about Pretending, there's more to life
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 7/19/2009 08:03:00 PM
Friday, July 17, 2009
just nw celeb tina & gariel bdae
eat at seoul garden after long long tym
was so happy when suddenly he beep me
then you told me u need some tym alone...
i will give u bt how long..
i need assurance..
will u come back or u dun turn back?
then u said u wanna go for the raffles lab test,
which for 5mth u wont be back,
u cant go bck,
i dun understand suddenly,,
when i said i wanna study overseas,
you said u cant bear for us to be apart..
then now??
who am i to you?
where do i stands to u??
i feel like crying,
but is it worth it???
idk wat to say wat to think...
one after another u wreck my heart..
was i reli that plastic??
was this how u take charge?
wat do u take me for?
wat u expect me to do?
hang myself n die infront of you?
wat u want from me?
u tell me so i knoe..
at the very least i can do something!
you are heartless, selfish creature!!!!
if im reli in ur heart,
will u even bear to do this to me?
let me cry on my own?
everything on my own?
is this how u wanna things to happen?
i cant believe things turning this way..
Labels: if only u knew, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 7/17/2009 11:16:00 PM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
actually i wanted to blog about my class..
bitch about them but now i dun have the heart to..
my mind is elsewhere..
went to watch obsessed with JO & SHALU..
great show..
GIRLS POWER!!!
see when u love someone, u will go to all the extent..
aniwaes, back in bus, i was crying like nobody business..
everyone have problems, either big or small..
i seriously dunno hw u judge it..
but ITS HOW YOU HANDLE IT!!
GODDAMN IT!!!
haix..
i was hiding all my sadness from my frens..
i dun want them to see me sad..
i smile, i laugh, i crack stupid jokes, irritate ppl,
just to forget my problems a while..
i ttried to hide it..
i wonder..
why when coming to our yearly anniversary surely we are on separation mode?
i try to be strong, change my mentality..
i know im a bitch, i was wrong..
i cried in the bus after the msg he sent me..
i think its the best solution..
i respect ur decision..
i was helpless..
lotsaa things run into my head..
gods knows seriously..
u said move on , where do i go?
ouh god..tears roll down my cheek while im typing..
is this a test that you put me thru?
those days were to good to be gone..
God, why are u testing me this way?
i dunno how long i can hold on..
god give me strength..
im thankful for my fren who has always being there for me..
but somehow, i rather be alone..
i wish i can scream..
i can hit someone...
haix..
i better get going..
need to puff a few cigg..
i need to cool down..
put my mind at ease..
Labels: Life Is about Pretending
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 7/16/2009 07:18:00 PM
Miss those good tym we had together.. on top of all.. miss him a lot.. left side pic is current..right is our pic wen our 2nd date..time changes everything..
05/08/2007
the day two hearts,
two mind,
two soul,
become one.
Labels: if only u knew
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 7/16/2009 02:50:00 AM
Its 2 plus in the morning.
yet me cant sleep.
hmm....
just nw unintentionally met him..
cz got prospect..
then we r like strangers..
its ok..
Dee is strong to pull thru..
anyways, hate my group blog..
very wordy..
but satisfied though..
my hardwork sia..
aniwaes, miss him alot..
wish i can cuddle him..
urgh..
God gave me strength..
its all about ur thinking dee..
haix..
so down..
today my last presentation for the week.
my heart is at ease..
finally...
next week my attachment..
wil be busy..
wont be updating blog..
wont be meeting him..
for a month..
urgh its ok..
niwe, just nw i cried inside train..
i dun noe y..
thanks shalu, jo n all for the care & thots..
hope everything gonna be fine soon..
praise to allah.
i oso have something to blog about my class tmr..
not now..
now my emo mood..
mix with my angry mood..
everyone gonna die!!!
sweet dreams to me..
Labels: Life Is about Pretending
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 7/16/2009 02:23:00 AM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Right now u are at home, having u good sleep..
while im here crying n fixing the broken heart...
we watch transformer and i was crying throughout the whole show..
i was cold but u couldnt care to even hug me..
u didnnt even bother to talk to me since we met..
only necessary questions n thats it..
i couldnt be mad cz i know i was wrong..
i knew u r very angry n sad..
but i was disappointed that u did this to me..
n wen i decided to go home on my own,
u blame me everything..
i knew i only give u problems..
i knew u were too good for me..
i dunno wat to say...
maybe it is best for us be at distance now..
im so sorry..
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 7/14/2009 08:47:00 PM
Friday, July 10, 2009
hey im back babes...
long time from my entry...
its been a while since i spent tym with him..
only us together go dating..
long long time..
haix...
then when i check his phone lots of girls no..
i dun wanna noe...
i oso dun noe wat to think...
but he swear beg at me saying he didnt do anything stupid..
i dunno all this empty saying..
haiya..
anyways lotsa problem at home..
i cant stand a sight at home..
i feel like crying and swearing..
i dont understand..whatever i did all wrong..
they swear on me say im useless la..
no point being a girl..
i dunno la...
when whatever i did is all for them ...
when i run away i dun wanna let anyone noe...
no one..
at all...
i feel like standing on top of mountain..
AND SCREAM ON TOP OF MY FUCKING LUNG!!!!!
UUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!
ok dee, take a deep breathe in,
out, breathe in, out..
relax..
and smile!!!!
haiya..
SMILE!!!
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Life is unfair
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 7/10/2009 10:16:00 PM
Monday, July 6, 2009
Its been long long long time i BLOG..
and these women (sya, tina) keep saying i dun blog..
no internet connection at home..
now no more..
now i have
hahaha...
aniways, i open face book too.
after long confide with boyfren..
haha..
the last time i blog before i went Melaka..
talking about it..haha..
i wanna share..
4 of us went..
me, tina, shalu and jasmine..damn fun!!!
dee - the streetsmart women (haha..obviously)
tina - the blur queen (everything she blur then want to convert $$)
shalu - the shopping queen (keep buying stuff)
jas - the quiet gal (keep stay one corner and eat sweet)
Basically very funny la..
Suppose to meet at 8 am but Jas was late..
i begged with the bus driver not to leave too soon..
luckily the bus driver was kind la..
then our journey was 4 hours long..
i keep on sleeping in bus..
haha,,tired la..
then reach oredi, we all plan to buy ticket back home
then go hotel..
so we did..
the hotel so big la..
and my apartment very nice view..
haha..facing the sea..
we put our bag only after checking in,
we all go shopping...
until 10 pm then we go eat..
haha..
in btwn we got eat at pizza hut at Mahkota parade, STUPID SERVICE
then we go to eat seafood at night..
NICE!!! fuyooo!!!!
then go home, drink a lil bit then sleep..
the vodka and orange juice sucks.
vodka taste like alcohol wibes,
orange juice taste like orange syrup mixed with water..
sucks big time.. sleep better..
then tmr wake up go sauna..haha..
me and tina just wear bra and underwear lo.
haha..too much detail..
then we continue last minute shopping then go jonker street..
i dun have the pic la..shalu didnt send..
then we all eat Chendol down there and laksa..
wah...very nice..feel like going again..
haha..then we go home la...
hahahahahahahhaha...
it was a very fun trip..
sadly only 4 of us go..
haha
loves...
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 7/06/2009 10:13:00 PM
