Thursday, May 21, 2009
Well here i am updating my blog in the early morning..
I came to skol early coz he came and fetch me..
Not exactly came to my place..
Yesterday we fought..
Yet again..
All because of my fault..
He was very tolerant towards me..
I was having mood swings and to say a bad mood..
I came home yesterday with migrane and my home ppl gives me headache..
Eventually i throw my tantrum at him..
He was cool, understand me he calmed me down..
Then wen we hung up the phone cz he got to go i suddenly agitated..
Then i started scolding him bla bla..
I send him all my negative thots..
Then i went to sleep..
I wake up at 2 am realising he msg me he is otw to his fren place at PAsir ris..
I know this fren of his..
But when i tot he didnt msg me he reached there alredi,
i started got on my nerve..
I scold him,..
kept calling him...
in the end i use vulgarities on him..
I respect him and i NEVER use vulgarities if we are in serious conversation..
I told him to fuck off and stuff..
He got mad and said he did msg me his whereabout..
I checked my phone..
Yes he did..
i missed reading it..
We started argumenting alreadi..
He came down to my place..
Under my void deck..
Giving me 39 missed calls.
I was guilty..
I went to look for him under my void deck..
But i cant find him..
I was sad n his batt was flat..
I didnt sleep but to look out for him..
His bike is there under my void deck..
I saw it..
Thats why i wait..
Til 7 .40 am he called me..
I try to sort things out but i realised it was too late..
He is giving me his cold shoulders..
I love him so much that i cant bear things like this to happen..
I created the situation..
N i hate myself for it..
I am making up to him..
I have made a vow not to be a negative thinker..
Also i want to understand him as much as i do..
Giving him spaces and be positive abt everything..
I shoulnt be possesive..
I AM SORRY SWEETHEART..
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART..
Labels: Guilty, love is really about sacrification, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd, There is always 2 side of story
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 5/21/2009 09:26:00 AM
