Friday, January 23, 2009

when i think back, i really regret..

regret for not loving him as much as he loves me..

all this while he treat me like a fren but it just that, he curfewed me.

He dun really let me do things but i can once in a while..

he is very reasonable.. I agreeed i used to hate him..

Cz when he first came to my family he just approach us with lies..

But now i know why he lied.. Now i understand..

All this while he care for me, and treat me like his own daughter.

I just dun seems to appreciate it...

People say ,

"You wont know how much that persons mean to you Les he left you".

I agreed on that saying so much.. I neve said i love him before..

I nver did.. I didnt even get the chance to say i am sorry for all the things i did..

so those ppl who read my blog..here are some piece of advice..

ur parents may scold u, nag at u n u tink dey dun noe hw u feel..

love them as much as they love you..

you can say those 3 words to ur special someone..

but it is so hard to say i love you to ur parents..

while they are still alive, care for them and respect them,

try to understand them..

It neva too late..

Labels: There is always 2 side of story, there's more to life

? . kiss my smoky lips baby 1/23/2009 08:08:00 PM

After soooo looooong i didnt blog....

many things happen recently that creates a lot of downfall...

My father passed away last week...

it happened to soon and to complex..

.it just tym for him to go..No one would expct it so soon..

But wen i see his dead body i cried and cried...

it just so pity and and indonesia mortuary arent like mortuary at all..

i can still feel his presence here in this house..his last words for me is to keep quit smoking..

and i am very am gng to quit smoking...

no one knew how much pain i am gng thru..

especially seeing my mum emotional breakdown..cz she always depend on him..

and now he go left my mum alone handling all the problems..

i tried to ease my mum burden trying to be there for her..

i noe all she need me to be there for her..

i know that she also wants to be heard to be loved for now

she had no one except her children..

i pity most my two young brother..they didnt know anything..

nothing at all..

yet they keep asking abt his dad every night...

my mum pray every day and night..she need to be strong..

ma no matter what happen i love you soo much...

now me and my sister are doing all we can to ease our family financial...

i really hope i can do this..no one can really know what is inside me..

i wish i can help my mum as much as i can..

Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Life is unfair

? . kiss my smoky lips baby 1/23/2009 02:19:00 PM

Monday, January 5, 2009

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? . kiss my smoky lips baby 1/05/2009 03:01:00 PM

Thursday, January 1, 2009

waving goodbye to 08 and saying welcome to 09.

i seriously think time flies very fast..

so fast that in another 8 more weeks i am in my year 2..

so many things happen in 08..

alot of downs..i hope 09 will be more up..

i also hope that in this year i will make it up..

lets do some reflection..

my resolution are:

1) Quit smoking (i tink i cant!! hahah!!)

2) Study harder..Gosh aiming of 2.7 GPA

3) Stop being unreasonable bitch..(i so swearing myself onto this)

4) Being the better person i can be

5) Stop Stop STOP criticizing people..haha...

6) Make more new friends

7) Buying a PSP (hmm been wanting this..but haiz..nvm)

8) Getting new MP4

9) Being nicer to MOMMY (stop making her cry)

haha..thats all...

here are the Pics took before the year end

the ladies

the ladies again

The Gals & Guys

Labels: loads of crap

? . kiss my smoky lips baby 1/01/2009 03:49:00 PM

Friday, January 23, 2009

Monday, January 5, 2009

Thursday, January 1, 2009

its all DEE

ANGEL to DEE

DEVIL to DEE

INNOCENT DESIRES

OTHER SMOKERS

DIRTY SECRETS

TALK TO ME?

applaud