Sunday, November 30, 2008
Tell me something about life i dont know?!!! Aniways, i am having exams next week. both lab and practical. I think i am going crazy!!! urgh... God help me!!! & i am so unprepared. With projects to deal with. I think i am really going crazy!!! I cant wait for my projects to be over...
Why must my group be the last???
Yesterday had chingay..FUN!!! was dancing all the way and i finally get my steps. Saw Jo dance, she so SPORTS WOMEN..haha...Cynn was a fast learner, i admit that. Well for Shalu, she kept giggling....haha..you can really see them from far...aniways we are in BUTTERFLIES!!! and yes i am a loud haler...ouh god...
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GFs at Chingay '09
Aniways, i miss my bf. After a week not meeting him, i only got to meet him 2 hours yesterday.. I really want to be with him.. This is i meant by love is blind. No matter how much that person hurts you deeply, you will still love him and think of him. No matter how much you try to date new guys and getting to know new guys to forget him and overcome all that you feel for him and filled the emptiness that he left you with, his the only that you wished you will be sitting next with, cuddle u n put u to sleep. He will also be the one you wished who kissed you on ur forehead or ur lips saying how much he love you and misses you. After a year 5 mths together with him, its not easy to forget everything that we built. ITS NOT EASY. nobody can replaces him. I admit he is a bad guy. A VERY BAD ONE!!! but y him i still chose to be with. If only i were the old dian who loved to ditch and bastard guys, i will not be hesistant to just dumped him. OMG!!!! sometimes i wonder, why am i sooooo STUPID????
❤ is really really ❤
Labels: love is really about sacrification
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/30/2008 05:55:00 PM
Monday, November 24, 2008
What is life actually?
What is there for life?
What does life holds for me?
I don't know why am i saying all this...
I just felt like crying..
I felt like shouting on the top of the world...
Why must all this happen to me?
What have I done that i got all this?
I tried my best to overcome all this obstacles..
All i know i cried every night of my life trying to calmed myself..
Crying to make myself happy, to throw all the sadness..
Labels: Life is unfair
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/24/2008 09:54:00 PM
Monday, November 17, 2008
No one really can tell from this bubbly cheerful noisy girl like me have their sorrow side of sorrows. No one can tell that i am LONELY. deep down in my heart. seriously. i am. at home i dont have the attention and love from my family and anyone other does too.. not that i pull myself away but looking at my family condition it just wrecks my heart. With my mom bein 27/7 brainwashed by my step father. And with my dad who is so far away from me distant. He too married with his new wife living away from me. the last tym i saw him was 2 months ago. My sis had no tym for me not for this family she only work throughout her life. I do have bf but he too is too busy with his new career and skols and own family. I do have frens but the moment skol is over all of them had thier on own life to entertain to. While me may seem cheerful but i just had no one to laugh to at night or cry on a shoulder when i need them. I felt being a stranger in my own world. I AM so dread of being cared and loved by my close one. Yes they said it but they dont show it. I just feel so down now.. When i cried at night, it just me bein myself trying to overcome all the sadness in my life. If only i can shout it to the whole world. I dont expect everyday of my life to smile but just a heart warming feeling like as though you know hey this is my life. i love it.When i dont anyway. i feel so lost. stranded in the biggest ocean, sailing with nowhere to be known. only drift as the waves push me.
Labels: There is always 2 side of story
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/17/2008 09:25:00 PM
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
when i was inside the train, i feel like shit..i mean who doesnt, you see COUPLES hugs, kisses, laugh and chat toghether..Well for me, yes, ppl ask why must i get tense up..When i have a boyfriend....say that one more tym????ok look here aite... i sounds like i have a boyfriend but excuse me i just don't feel like i do have one... i understand that he is bz.. work office hours, after thatnight courses.. go home to tired to talk and just to sleep...usually my sms will reach like 110 plus per day but now, its only 120 since sunday... so tell me???he used to call me and talk for long hours.. now??DON"T BOTHER!!! he will say this, u need to save ur phone usage. when i msg him, he will say, ok stop now,i tink we msg too much.. TOO MUCH??? less than 10!!!calls? less than 5 mins per day... ok AT LEAST he CALLED!!he cares more about WORK, MONEY and his BIKE!!!when his friends call him also , w/o hesistation he will go.weekends?? he will have SOCCER!!!!so where is his tym for me?? none... ok NONE!!i don't wanna care anymore la...GO TO HELL!!!
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/12/2008 06:33:00 PM
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
i feel like dying now.... when i want to study my brain had some dysfunction... aiyo... next week is alredi my bio exam... SHEESSSHHHHH!!!i got 20 lectures to study but i am only at 4... OH MY!!!aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!GOD HELP ME!!!!aniways....i miss him(s) so much....ok ask me who....i miss my dear hubby... at the same tym my dear crushy...wakakaka.... NOTYGIRLS.COMi hav to wait til saturday to meet my hubby...he is having his night courses now til 26 Nov...then that tall fella, he is bz looking for a stable job...at the same time he lives far far away from me..extremely the other end... JURONG!!!!oh my.....i am so so so so so so so so so confused.... haha...shit!!!!!Labels: love is really about sacrification
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/11/2008 10:00:00 PM
Had So Much fun with the girls today..
first Thing i came to school, Tina said...
"so Bright today, wait , wait, u all like traffic light.."
yea..what she mean is this....jpg)
isnt this cute? hahaha....
well ya, den i was so bored in lecture..
totally..i don't know what to do that i snap few pictures of myself...
cool huh??? sadly, thats the cap i want to buy..
its not mine..i noe.. urgh!!!!!!!
haha..aint betta things to do...
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/11/2008 07:49:00 PM
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Oh My...
i am so bored to DEATH...
gosh.. whole day at home but i dont know what to do..
The moment i wake up til now..
basically thanks to my Idiot step father...
when he is at home, i don't feel the freedom of moving arnd the hse.
YUCKS!!! i hate him at home...
ouh my...
i think i want to study..but when i do open my books..
i will want to yawn...
so not motivated....arrrrrrrrrrrr.......
aniways if you all noe any soccer tournament..
for women please please please comment me....
IYAK DISH!!!
but now i noe that not many sports event avail cz
HOLIDAYS!!!
Ouh well...........i am sooooo tired.......
fri soccer den sat also soccer...
ouk...den now...
my rest day but i cant REST
Labels: loads of crap
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/09/2008 07:18:00 PM
I went to soccer game yesterday at The Cage @ Kallang...
Usually, I went there with transport but yesterday was an exception.
I took Bus no. 16 to kallang from bedok interchange..
However, when i stood inside the bus, i felt a different presence..
The inner bus is so COOL!!!
all the seat is not the normal bus seat we used to sit in a bus..
its a RACING CAR SEAT!!! and i am NOT KIDDING!!!!
There's a big flat TV screen adjacent to the seats..
Basically, i was amazed...haha... I learnt that this bus was in conjuctioned
of the F1 race in Singapore... it was really a great experience..
here the Pic i took!!!! typical hor!!!!
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/09/2008 03:45:00 PM
Friday, November 7, 2008
out of nowhere he msg me this
"I am watching a show at suria..the show is very cute you know"and let me tell you this.. he never before msg me like this
unless if he wants me to watch the show but that also he will say
it in another way..so i ask him who actuali u msg. he kept quiet
at first den he said he msg me cz he wants me to watch the show.
then i sae oh really? den he say why am i like this like not trust
him that he really msg me.. let me tell you this ok ..
i know you for years and i know you too well to understand u..
i didnt just born yesterday..and obviously i noe you are lying
by the way u talk to me.. and also u should understand y i am
like this cz u cheated on me many tyms before. do you expect me
to TRUST you WHOLE-HEARTEDLY within short period of tym?
do u expext me to really forget abt what hppn and trust you..
you know yourself better that it took tym for me to heal..
not once, not twice not thrice but many tyms u cheated behind my
back and i gave you chances to prove urself but i told you that i cant
forget it immediately and it will took to tym to gain the trust from u
back.. u just dont understand do u? u want me to understand u, but do
u reli understand me.. about what i am gng thru and what u did to me?
but after all that, i try to understand you no matter what..
i love you even more than i could think of or feel for..
i just dont know why i love you this much...Labels: love is really about sacrification
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/07/2008 10:38:00 PM
Its is such a tiring day today... thanks to the soccer yarh!!! but overall it was fun..its been soooo long since i played soccer..well but todae we bashes ppl up.. but we stil get bashes in the end..this girls reli played rough.. it was sooo pushy.. i just dont give a heck la..i just push them as much..haha...they dont kick the balls actually..BUT THEY KICK LEGSi mean like what the hell right..and yes..i can feel my left knee is injuredagain..cz i noe i had problems with my left knee cap..cldnt find my knee guard.DAMN!!!but well, i know its soft tissue injury.. and i can feel the numbness when i wasas at marina square..and wen i walk ouch pain..very numb...hahahahahahha.aniways, while playing lots watch us play but i dont care..i was happily defendingand yes after the game (obviously we lost) we went bowling.. was such a bad luck..it keep going inside the hole..URGH!!! and ok after that go eat..and my dear bestie sya is so down.... thanks to all the freaking guys..this guy sya noe is such an asshole. if u dont want to meet her den dont make appoinments. if u had done done be sure u are relli keen. and if you dont wantto meet just be frank.. DONT BE SUCH A COWARD!!! its not as though ppl forceyou to meet what...GUYS ARE SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/07/2008 10:27:00 PM
hahaha...NR0828 which is my class..we celebrated well those 3 girls bdae..
its actuali on tues but i post now cz i had no tym...
well..had fun...we all cut bdae cakes, catch a movie and have a dinner..
what movie it is?? its the REC!!! stupid, funny (not intentionally i tink), and
lots of surprises..haha..
not my bdae but i kena buli....GOSH!!!
Cake cutting ceremony..the 3 Bdae girls..cool uh..on the same day...
And of course not forgetting sabo moments...
And the very LOOOOOnnnnnGGGGG TIXS!!!
HAPPY BDAE LADIES...
HOPE YOU ENJOY UR BDAE THIS YR!!
I LOVE YOU ALL...
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/07/2008 12:50:00 AM
Sunday, November 2, 2008
after soccer he straight away go to sleep...
den he like don;t want to talk to me...
i feel so lonely.. he ALways put me aside..
he always left me in a corner...
he always does this to me...
he dont relly care whether i ate or not..
he dont care whether i slept or had my rest..
he dont reli care!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why am i blinded by his love??
why do i love him so much?????
why do i have to go through all this again???
where do i really stand inside him?
where does he place me in his heart?
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/02/2008 09:05:00 PM
welll..honestly... after so long i did not log in...n BLOG..
like duh... now i am back.. cause my holidays is over and i am 24/7 with my dear lappy..
now i am back to school..no more attachments..
but a lots of ASSIGNMENTS & PROJECTS & TESTS & EXAMS!!!
i think i am going crazy.. well since last semester i am a pure slacker..
this sem i am going to make it through..
i am aiming for at least 4 Bs.. well..i will blog again tonight..
need to settle some of my skol werk...
GET MY ENGINE SET...ON!!!!!
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/02/2008 01:59:00 PM
