Friday, December 26, 2008
Hola.....I'm back...
Well actually not, but i decided to drop by today..
Because i've not been Blogging....
When I am doin nothing....
Well, Btw bz with Skol and Chingay and ESSAY (1500 words=sucks)
Very tiring with life....
Especially my family...
I just hate them to cores...dont ask me y...(too many reasons)
However, i'm getting BETTER with BF...
well,honestly lately we've been the craziest...
NO NO NO..not mushy2x but like gangster you know what i mean..
We bullied each other and call each other just to say "WHAT IDIOT!!!"
if we met up, i will beat him, smack him, spank him *wink* & pinch him
then he will scold me, nag at me and pinch me too..(he dun dare beat me)
haha...well, cz i HATE my FAMILY!!!!!!!! to the CORES!!!!
❤ did i just say me and BF getting better??? *wink*
Labels: Life Is about Pretending, Love is Really ComPLicatTEd
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 12/26/2008 07:19:00 PM
Sunday, December 21, 2008
well, recently i did not blog so much...
i just had no mood to talk...
ask me why...
too many things have been going thru my mind..
and i dont know how to put it at ease...
everything seems to be falling down...
and i seriously hate to stay at home facing all the crisis and dilemma that going on in here.
then i cant stand the sight of someone i dun like at home...
so far i did not mention..
i hated my stepdad for so long...
and each day it just grew stronger..
and its like a burden to carry those anger and hatred in me..
its really a burden i swear..
i try to give in to him, listen to wateva bullshit he said or whatever
but notink i do can meake me happy.
coz wateva i did neva seems to make him happy.
but i just had to hold on because of my mom.
i dun want my mum to always be in the middle.
i pitied her.
she always had to act as a mediator.
urgh. its been 9 years they got married
and their marriage is just worthless.
They owned it up too. All he lives is in LIES.
thats y i hate him. He always think that he is right.
When he is always wrong. I dun wanna talk about him.
Cz i just never seems to like him.
Labels: Life Is about Pretending
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 12/21/2008 07:03:00 PM
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
If I were a boy
Even just for a day
Id roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
Id kick it with who I wanted
And Id never get confronted for it
Because theyd stick up for me
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear Id be a better man
Id listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause hes taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they thinkthat I was sleeping alone
Id put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that shed be faithful
Waiting for me to come home
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear Id be a better man
Id listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause hes taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
Its a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong
But you're just a boy
You dont understand
How it feels to love a girl
Someday youll wish you were a better man
You dont listen to her
You dont care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 12/16/2008 07:41:00 PM
Sunday, December 14, 2008
I dun know why or what happened.But recently, i just dont feel like talking and do things i usually did.. All i wanna do is cry.. I cried thinking about my family... Why cant they trust their children like how other parents can.. They just Dun allow me to go out.. and i have to keep on lying to them then they like treat me like a stranger at home.. I just dunno wat to say but now i amtyping, i am tearing away.. I've change to be a better girl.. I am not wild like i used to.. I just want my life back..I had no one to talk to at home and i had...nothing...i just want my life..
Guys you all should be thankful for having a family who can relate to you guys and all and you all should reli be thankful that they understand you...
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 12/14/2008 03:47:00 PM
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
sometimes you just dont need
to let anyone noe that you are sad...
sometimes you just need to
hide those feelings of fears, lost and confused..
you just have to pretend to cover
those scars that tearing apart in ur heart..
you just have to laugh and smile
to the extent that nobody noticed that deep inside u,
what you really feel about you and your life...
though you cried til you cant open your eyes..
cause when all things matter,
only you know what's deep down in you..
just
pretend everything's okay,
hold back the tears and just Walk away quietly
Labels: Life Is about Pretending
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 12/10/2008 11:15:00 PM
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Azfar, HAPPY 16th mths sayang...
I love you sooo much....
with regards whatever happen...
though everyday we fought and argue
though at the very night of our BIG day we fought again
let me just tell you this.
i love you and we still are standing strong..
i reli pray that you change..
i reli hope you CHANGED.
i just want us to be as happy as we can be..
seeing you smile just make me feel so happy....
I MISS YOU
I LOVE YOU
I NEED YOU
I WANT YOU
our memory Labels: Love is Really ComPLicatTEd
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 12/06/2008 10:31:00 PM
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Had a chocolate day yesterday, while studying in the library.
IN THE LIBRARY!!! where NO FOOD AND DRINKS ALLOWED. OR
YOUR NAME AND ID NO WILL BE TAKE DOWN. THOSE WITHOUT IDENTIFICATION WILL BE ASKED TO LEAVE.
my school announcement. something like that. dont expect me to recall..
told ya!!!
? . kiss my smoky lips baby 12/03/2008 09:45:00 PM
