Monday, November 17, 2008

No one really can tell from this bubbly cheerful noisy girl like me have their sorrow side of sorrows. No one can tell that i am LONELY. deep down in my heart. seriously. i am. at home i dont have the attention and love from my family and anyone other does too.. not that i pull myself away but looking at my family condition it just wrecks my heart. With my mom bein 27/7 brainwashed by my step father. And with my dad who is so far away from me distant. He too married with his new wife living away from me. the last tym i saw him was 2 months ago. My sis had no tym for me not for this family she only work throughout her life. I do have bf but he too is too busy with his new career and skols and own family. I do have frens but the moment skol is over all of them had thier on own life to entertain to. While me may seem cheerful but i just had no one to laugh to at night or cry on a shoulder when i need them. I felt being a stranger in my own world. I AM so dread of being cared and loved by my close one. Yes they said it but they dont show it. I just feel so down now.. When i cried at night, it just me bein myself trying to overcome all the sadness in my life. If only i can shout it to the whole world. I dont expect everyday of my life to smile but just a heart warming feeling like as though you know hey this is my life. i love it.When i dont anyway. i feel so lost. stranded in the biggest ocean, sailing with nowhere to be known. only drift as the waves push me.

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? . kiss my smoky lips baby 11/17/2008 09:25:00 PM

Monday, November 17, 2008

its all DEE

ANGEL to DEE

DEVIL to DEE

INNOCENT DESIRES

OTHER SMOKERS

DIRTY SECRETS

TALK TO ME?

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